I am Antinous. I am Osiris. I am Antinous the Justified.
I am the one who was lost and found himself.
I am the one who was drowned and breathed again.
I am the one whom Hapi took and Isis gave back again.
Where the red lotus bloomed, I have died,
And now I live again for ever.
I have not done the things which ought not to be done.
My heart has been weighed in the hall of Ma’at and pronounced pure.
Anubis has justified me. The forty-two judges have justified me.
Osiris has justified me and given me his crook and flail.
I have passed by the white cypress tree and the spring that flows beneath it.
Child of earth and heaven, I have drunk from the water of Memory,
And I know my true name, which is
ASKION KATASKION LIX TETRAX
DAMNAMENEUS AISIA ENDASION.
I have the favor of Persephone, the dread queen,
And with Hades’ blessing I walk in the groves of Elysium.
With the wings and the staff of Hermes,
The Messenger, the Guide of the Dead,
I come and go as I please.
Like a kid I have fallen into milk.
Like grapes I have been crushed and fermented and poured into wine.
Like a goat I have been torn apart and devoured
And discovered and assembled anew.
I have found myself and lost myself in the dance.
I bear the thyrsus of Dionysus and wear his ivy crown and leopard pelt.
I have ascended on high from the deepest depth.
I have vanquished the archons and mounted the heights
In the Boat of Millions of Years.
I have adorned Aquarius and the stars of the Eagle.
I have shone my light in healing and prophecy like Apollon.
He has given me his lyre that I may play for the Muses.
With Orion and his hounds I have hunted the heavens,
The earth, and the underworld. I am welcome in every place.
I have passed the seven gates of Ereshkigal
And returned to shine with the dawn.
I was in the tomb of Jesus and at the banquet of his consummation.
I have entered the domain of Hel and brought forth my bride Melinoe.
There is no place where I have not been welcomed
And no place where my star cannot guide.
I am Antinous Osiris the Justified, Antinous Hermes
The Guide, Antinous Dionysus and Antinous Apollon,
Child of earth and starry heaven,
Beautiful, benevolent, just.
©Merri-Todd Webster, 7/31/2017
